I took some time to go for a walk, I had been writing non stop, I felt foggy in the head like I needed to get rid of the cob webs. I was feeling unfit because on my writing days I sit and think and write for hours…so it was time to move.
As I walked up and down our bumpy bushy road I thought to myself…is this all worth it, am I doing the right thing here? is it worthwhile? I was so confused with all the words running around in my head. I tried to focus on the mantra as I walked with each step beating out the sounds of Om Namah Shivaya as I walked. My favourite best friend was happy to be running along side with his tongue hanging out panting as he went. Jumping up to me, running ahead and running back to check on me.
I reached a turn in the road at the top of the hill and with all the mumbo jumbo in my head I decided to ask the universe a question, was I doing the right thing? was I on track with my writing? please let me know, give me a sign in some way…well Melissa says feathers are signs so a feather would be nice…but I know that they are hard to come by on this rocky path, so anything will be good. Perhaps a butterfly…I told you my mind was going crazy with questions. I then forgot about the questions and the sign and headed down the path, beating out the sounds of the mantra as I went. The sun was biting down on me it was in the afternoon, but the strength of the sun was strong. Rain clouds in the distance promised some relief, and the skies were becoming darker.
I reached the end of the road, checked my fitbit, halfway there 2000 steps so I turned to head up the path on my way back. I recalled how the children used to walk this track in the heat after school and thought if they did it so could I ( although they used to stop half way and dunk themselves into the river). Still beating out the tune of the mantra with my feet. I’m truly panting and puffing now up the hill its hard work. And then I look down well I’m already looking down as it is hot and I’m tired and right at the spot where I asked for a sign half an hour earlier was a FEATHER! Not just an ordinary feather, it was green…the green light to go ahead…OMG…I thought I was seeing things or inventing something, but it couldn’t be denied, I bent down and picked it up. It was real!